Comparisons

Compare-to examine in order to note similarities and differences.

         Why do we do it? We as humans do more than I think we realize. We compare our children, our parents, past relationships with the current, Christmases from this year to last year. Who is more attractive, who is smarter, which one is better?? I think we do it because we can't help it. It is important though, to remember that people, places, things, anything that we compare...are different. Different for different reasons, different factors make up different things. Isn't it irritating?? Well my last boyfriend/girlfriend did this or was like this. Well "Name" got this or did this and "you" didn't. Maybe that's because we are different people with different thoughts about life.
Be happy with what and who you have. And if you don't want to be happy or feel like that you can't be happy with or who you have, then leave it alone. The best thing to do is remember it, but you don't have to acknowledge it.

Please don't compare people to other people. God made us all different for a reason.

It's Official

It's official, I have found the love of my life.
I cried when he left me.
My throat starts to get clogged up when I think about being away from him for too long.
His love is overflowing in my soul.
I love him.
I trust him.
I understand him.
yeah....it's official.
I have found the love of my life.
That is all.

Fall 2010

I too have been absent from this site for a while...exams came up quickly..so I think while i'm sitting under the hair dryer I think now would be a great time to run through this semester.

AUGUST: So I worked in Orangeburg over the summer and overall I had a great summer. I went to National Convention for my sorority (the best ever) and colored my hair and was ready for a great junior year. It took some time adjusting to not being with my boyfriend all the time like over the summer, but with reflection i got myself together and figured out ways to see him and show that I care. Football games were fun and the band was awesome. I took 17 hours and knew I had a great chance of getting good grades.

SEPTEMBER: More football games and just getting in the swing of things. 7 months with my babe and things went very swell.

OCTOBER: People started getting more excited for my birthday than I was. I was afraid. I was surrounded by friends and I had a loving boyfriend, and I was afraid that this would be one of my greatest birthdays yet. I had many sad ones so I was afraid. But it was just enough. I had cake in the cafe and I almost cried. I never ask for anything but I am always given everything. Homecoming was great, me and my boyfriend went to Scarowinds, midterms were so so..and we were all ready for a break.

NOVEMBER: Everyone...and I mean everyone was ready for a break. I got a little slack on my work because my classes were so easy =/. I didn't want to leave him for a those days..but that's the way life and love goes.

DECEMBER: Exams. & the bittersweet feeling of a break but missing your friends, your freedom, your college life. I ended up with a 4.0 this semester. I am proud. I needed that after last semester. My boyfriend and I are now at 9 months with each other. I saw him a couple days ago...but hours with him just enough for my heart.  Fall 2010 was great...so was Fall 2009. They were very different..but I couldn't be any more happy.

wait...i take that back...yes i can.

With what I know God has in store for me..I can't even imagine how happy I will be.

Change

When I was 18, my boyfriend at the time, dumped me.I was UPset, like beyond upset.I cried & cried & made so many excuses for why I got dumped. I thought it was my fault & because I never got a real explanation I was even more confused. A year goes by & I'm a new "gal". I met a guy who was/is a friend of mine, and he came out of no where. He was always my friend, but when things started changing between us...that's what I mean by he came out of no where. Alot of people didn't like that we were together. And what made me want to be with him even more was that, nobody wanted us together. He has taught me alot though. And he teaches me so much, it makes me wonder how did I get to be so lucky. I'm corny and clumsy and dorky and I like to read and I write blogs.lol My words gets twisted when I talk to fast, I tell stories that are only funny to me, and I love him.  and you know people say "getting married" & steps have to be taken ya know. Months can only go by one day at a time. Each day in each month, I'm smiling over something simple that he's done. He has my back. He smiles at my dumb stories. He read my blog. In public we fight because oddly enough, that's how we show our care. When I got dumped, spring 09, I had no idea that I'd be where I am now. I make him cookies and I travel to see him play. 9 months in 10 days. <3 I'm definitely not ready for him to walk out that door, so I definitely will not open for him.

My Mama Raised Me....

My mother raised me to do many things. I thought that they were pretty crazy then, but every day I realize my mother is a very smart woman in all categories.
My Mama Raised Me...

• Try to keep your room/house clean before the weekend. So when you are ready to go out or have company, you won't have to clean up that much stuff.just the basics.
• Go out of your way for the people that you love. This can be your family, significant other, or extra special friends. That's what love does to you.
• Help people whenever you can. Even if they say they don't need any help, still do something even if it's small.
• During your period, take the trash out more often. No one wants that stank smell smelling up the bathroom or room.
• Be respectful to others, especially elders. Old people can't help themselves.They just like seeing young successful people. Give them a break.
• Give your clothes away if you don't wear them anymore. Some people aren't as fortunate.Think as if you weren't.
•  Don't lounge in your pajamas ALL day. You never know when you may invited somewhere & you always want to be ready to go.

I'm sure as each day I live and I continue to write I'll have more bullets. Keep watch of them.

Almost everyone has at least one friend. A friend that we go play with, have sleep overs with, go trick-or-treating with, share our day with. A friend that we play the game with, smoke with, drink with, watch porn with. A friend that we play a sport with, do homework with, study with, cheat on a test with.  This friend can do all of these things with us, some, or maybe just one. Most of the time when people describe what they want in a friend certain adjectives are always used. Loyal.Funny.Fun. "Real". Honest.
But HONESTLY, people don't want honest friends.They want a "friend" that tells them what they want to hear. They don't want to hear that they are sleeping around. They don't want to hear that their new hair cut or style is ugly. They don't want to hear that their jokes are not funny. They don't want to hear anything negative because alot of people think that THAT is what a friend is.
And it's always amusing to me, how some people honestly think that a friend wouldn't say these need to be said things.Think about it. Now if these need to be said things can't be said, then don't consider this person your friend. Associate...yes.Friend...maybe not so much.
The word friend is used so commonly now, that most of the time, it's used in the wrong fashion. "oh yeah, i just met him yesterday, he's in my class, he's my friend".no he's not. He's your classmate. A friend will want the best for you. A friend will tell you the truth. A friend will tell you the truth in whatever way you can handle it best. Blunt<-----or------>sugar coated. A friend will know how you can handle it best.
As kids we think that the more friends you have, the better you are, the happier you'll be. I mean shoot...isn't that why so many people add so many people on myspace, facebook, twitter? Yet as I have accumulated into the adult world, my circle of friends have shrunk. I am not everyone's friend & everyone is not my friend. You are not everyone's friend & everyone is not your friend.
Thankyou&goodnight

Virgin

I love my cousin. She inspires my creative side and I think that she knows when I need to be creative some how. In writing today, November 1, 2010. k_lovin took my virginity. She took it & now I will run with it. I have many theories about life, love, and everything else in between.  Yet the exterior of always smiling, joking,and "showing owt", it has been discovered that I'm not seen as very deep. But I am. I am way deeper than people realize. And I'm cool with that. If everyone knew my ways of life, they'd steal them and never give them back.
So as of now, I won't say much. I just lost my virginity in this art so it will take practice in releasing and expressing my thoughts. Practice though, does make perfect. Thankyou&goodnight.