2011

so...the first day of class was today. January 12, 2011. Tomorrow is January 13, 2011. And for those who do not know...22 Illustrious Women founded Delta Sigma Theta Sorority Incorporated on that day.  I am very happy for the occasion for it will be my first Founder's Day. The thoughts bouncing off in my mind though are not about Delta Sigma Theta Incorporated. I'm thinking more about the members. Not only the members of Delta Sigma Theta Inc., but the members of many Greek Organizations. Why do some people think that they have the "right" to be extra just because they have crossed into an organization? Extra means more than usual. extra loud, extra talkative, extra happy, just...EXTRA. sooo..can some one please tell me? For some reason some people change a little after they cross. and I can say whatever I want to say because I have already crossed. Now I know that confidence may be a little higher in many categories, but still. And I know what it means to be extra..my line name is SHOW OWT. I know how to act like a fool and for a while I did. But as this year has creeped around gracefully, I haven't been "showing owt" the way I used to. I feel that there has been so much extra-ness going around that mine is not needed. I'm not as loud as I used to be. Oh..i'm loud, but not as much as I used to be. so maybe this isn't even about crossing or not.
I am not the girl I used to be. I used to be the happy go-lucky girl that thought that rainbows and sundrops made the world go round. I used to think that long relationships could last through anything. I used to think that everyone wanted whats best for everyone else.
i was wrong.
I also used to be the girl that didn't care about many things. I didn't care if I looked foolish at games or anything exciting because that's what kids to.
Now, and I don't know what it is..some people would say it's my boyfriend. But no one can change you. You change because you want to and it's time to. Now, I'm calmer then I've ever been. I don't have to be the first girl to party hop. I don't have to be the first girl to party hop to a song that we don't even have a party hop. I think I have found a good medium between my past "Erika's".lol
I'm a new women and not because it's 2011.Because it was time.

• My Mama raised me: Remember, you never know who's watching you.